Chacha

 This week was fine. We went to Chiclayo for some leadership counsel thing and learned that our mission has very low sucess compared to most missions down here. I won't lie it kinda got me hyped and motivated. 

We had two exchanges this week. After the first one, every single sol of leadership fund disapeared out of my desk when I came back. Not just like 5 or 10 soles, but like 500. On his google photos he had been posting pictures of them eating at super nice restaurants and buying new suits all day. Lets keep in mind this is 3 days after he told me he didn't want to buy a sponge for the apartment because he was out of money... this rascal. I asked him about it and he yelled at me, told me Im a rich american, and made up every excuse in the book. I showed him the pictures of them eating with the leadership wallet on the table. He tucked his tail between his legs and gave me the money back. 

We started week long exchange with the AP's. My comp stayed in chiclayo and I came back to chiclayo. Peace out pal 🫡 I havent been yelled at for telling him I love him and want to help him or told Im the worst missionary of all time for 3 days now. Feeling pretty good about that 🤗

I am currently in a little town called Chachapoyas. This place is legit. Give it a search on the google, it is a cool place. Super pretty.

Shoutout mpohl and mrs clay for going to sweethearts together. I think thats pretty rad

I am very grateful for this time of my mission. I won't lie, this has been the hardest 4 weeks of my entire life. By far... I have never felt so sad, heartbroken, hopeless, and lost. I have never had my opinions and feelings so invalidated. I have never been made to feel so worthless and horrible. However I have also never prayed so hard and tried so hard to be like Jesus Christ. I have never tried so hard to love and communicate. To be the best man and disciple of Christ that I can manage to be. It is imposible to explain how hard this past month has been, so I wont try to. But I am so grateful for it. In fact I treasure it. It has changed who I am as a person, and who I will be forever. I don't see it as a stretch to say that I will forever view this time as a pivotal moment in my life. Somehow I can look at someone who makes me feel like dirt and say that I love them. Truly love them, and just want them to be happy. I can almost promise that 7 months ago Carden would have absolutely shmobbed this guy (or at least peed on his bed or something (my brothers may or may not have been the victims of this in the past)). If what I have learned and how I have changed over just the past 4 weeks is all I took away from 2 years down here, my mission would be worth it. I have seen so much growth and change in myself. I have never trusted so much in my Heavenly Fathers plan for me. 

Ether 12:27

And if men come unto me I will show unto them their WEAKNESS. I give unto men weakness that they may be HUMBLE; and my grace is sufficient for ALL MEN that humble themselves before me; for if they humble themselves before me, and have FAITH in me, then will I make weak things become STRONG unto them.